Sunday, July 19, 2015

All is Well

Our time in California was a bit of an oasis for me. Its been almost two years since I've had an extended period of good health. I've had some good times, but kept reverting to more lung and sinus problems. It's been a tough road to say the least! It was finally decided that I needed extensive sinus surgery. I was so disappointed but hopeful for some improvement in my health. Surgery was scheduled for 3 days after we returned from our trip to CA. I knew tough times were coming, so I did my best to soak up good times in CA. I had so much help around me which made all the differnce. I was able to spend time with family and laugh a lot (which is what I needed most). 

I usually get a little excited at the end our CA trips to get home and settle back into our family life. This time was different. Every time I thought about going home, I felt sick to my stomach. I knew surgery was lurking ahead! 

 Grandma Shelly came to the rescue again. I can't even count how any times she's come out to help us due to my health issues (starting back in Missouri with a hysterectomy and then a bad infection). Thank you, Mom!!! Mom was scheduled to fly out Tuesday afternoon. With lightning and thunderstorms in Denver, her flight was cancelled! This was stressful for all of us! We needed Grandma for the very next morning. Mom was able to get on another flight to San Diego that would connect to Denver. We were nervous all afternoon that that flight would get cancelled, too! We all said many prayers. Nate went to say a prayer that Grandma could make it safely and that the flight wouldn't get cancelled. I snapped the shot a second too late after Nate finished his prayer but I thought it was so sweet to see this little boy praying for his grandma. We were so thankful that Grandma flew in around 9 that night. What a huge, huge blessing! We enjoyed time with Mom and then I nervously said goodnight and felt so apprehensive for the next morning.
 Thankfully, I felt pretty peaceful the morning of surgery. I woke up (in a daze) and heard people talking to me about the surgery. I remember them talking about my eye and asking if I could see, if I was seeing double, etc. Then I heard that some parts of the surgery weren't completed because there was 10x the amount of bleeding due to the amount of infection. That was discouraging. The doctor was able to clean out all 6 sinuses in my head (I think there are 6) so that was great news.
 Due to the doctor's concerns about my eye, he decided to keep me in the hospital overnight to watch my eye. That was another disappointment but it turned out to be a good thing. I was in so much pain much of the time and it was nice to be in one spot while hardly moving. Being at home probably woudl have been harder on me. I had a hard time getting the pain under control for a quite a while. It was by far one of the hardest weeks of my life. Not sure what would go down in the books as the hardest, since we've had a lot of hard things, but this was near the top. Dave was with me most of the day and then went home to see Nate and the babies (Ash and Sadie were at girls' camp) and then he came back to sleep at the hospital. It was so comforting to have him there, even though I know he had a bad night of sleep!
 Grandma got really good at juggling two! It's a new experience, for sure! They loved having her here. We did, too! Mom took such great care of all of us. She even surprised me with different ways of making my bed a few different times...like a hotel. It made me smile each time.
 Seeing Anna, Audrey and Nate brought so much joy. I hurt so badly but my heart was so happy to have these kids surround me. We thought it might be too much to have busy toddlers all around me but it was just what I needed. Audrey and Anna loved to wipe my nose.
 Nate has a lot of tenderness amidst the wild boy in him! I think it was hard for him to see my face all banged up. He kept snuggling up to me and telling me he would do anything in the world for me...including cleaning anything.
 Ash and Sadie were busy having a blast at girls' camp! It made me happy to think they could be off having fun instead of seeing their mom miserable at home!
 Dave took some of the kids out on a run and they picked these wild flowers growing out in the yard. They brightened my whole room up.
 Grandma has a tradition of taking every grandchild out for milestone birthdays. So far there's been a 5 year old date, 8 year old date and 12 year old date. We are yet to see if there is another date coming but I think I heard something about 18? The kids treasure these dates. While here, Mom took Nate on his 8 year old date. I love this picture.
 Nate loved to change my bandage. It was kind of gross but he did it with such care. I loved watching his eyes so carefully check to make sure it was done just right.
 This is a new way to use the blocks! So many little things like this that cheered me up SO much.
 Nate asked what one of my favorite things to do was. I mentioned the piano. So he built "you are the best" with a piano in front. So creative!
 Anna and Audrey loved wearing Grandma's socks. They each had one on while playing in the garage.

Recently I read an article about the pioneers that traveled across the midwest to settle in Utah. They suffered so much on their journey, but had a solid foundation of their purpose. They sang a song with a chorus that included the phrase "All is well, all is well". They were able to see so many blessings and they had strong faith. Despite their many, many trials, they still felt that all was well.

This article hit home to me. Sometimes all I can see is the trial after trial that's staring me in the face. This past weekend I've had so many quiet moments where I heard the words "ALL IS WELL" in my heart. Despite the horrible week and a half filled with many tough times, I have so many blessings surrounding me. All is well.

San Francisco

We miss San Francisco!!! Ash and Sadie were saying how much they wanted to go to San Francisco while we were in California. Dave made it happen and we were so thankful! It was amazing as we drove up north and the many, many memories came flooding back. It seemed like it was just yesterday. I know that's cliche but it really felt that way!

 We loved telling the kids so many of the memories that they were too young to remember. The places we went on walks with the moms and toddlers/babies, the fruit market we stopped at on our walks, Dad's beautiful drive through the woods to dental school (on his motorcycle), the dental school where Dad worked so hard, our old church building, the hospital where Sadie and Brie were born, parks, etc! We tried to go to our favorite crepe place for lunch but it was no longer in business. We found another crepe place and it was delicious! We took our crepes to Chrissy Field, another place we spent many, many mornings walking and playing. It was windy (but it was 95 degrees back at Grandma's so we didn't mind the cooler weather). Anna and Audrey were happy to be out of the car and free to roam!

 Next we piled everyone back in the car to head to the Golden Gate Bridge.
 It was so fun to walk across much of the bridge. We even saw a huge whale come out of the water several times!! That was sure exciting!!!!

 Sadie and Audrey laughing at something! Not sure what!
 Sadie and Ash at the bottom of the stairs that led to our second story apartment. I can still remember so clearly my feelings as we were packing up to move out of this old 1940's apartment. The kitchen was so tiny and had our washer and dryer packed in. The microwave sat on the washer. No matter how hard we cleaned, it still seemed dirty. The bathroom was the same way. But...we had so many wonderful and tender and special memories in that old apartment. We brought Ash there as a busily talking toddler. Sadie was born in San Francisco. Brie was born in San Francisco. We even got to dress Brie in her burial dress in that apartment. I was so sad to leave that old place. It was then that I learned that it's not the place that matters, but the people in that place.
 We had to stop at our beach, Baker Beach. Nate and Sadie ran through the cold water!

As I mentioned, I never had my full energy so I sat on the beach while Anna and Audrey played around me. It was a special time for me to remember all of our memories (our Baker Beach dinners with friends) and many walks down to the beach. So many days are full of tough things but I had a few minutes where everything felt right and my heart was happy.

California!

 Dave dropped us off at the airport as we headed for California. He met up with us a week later. It's a busy trip with two 17 month olds but the older kids are such a big help!
 First on the list was the Boardwalk. Grandma was nice to babysit so I could go, too. No way I could pull off the Boardwalk with two little ones running every which way. Plus, I am far from my full energy (surgery post to come) and I haven't been up for too much.
 Anna and Audrey changing diapers.
 Anna feeding her baby.
 Anna, Grandma Shelly and Audrey. They loved snuggle time with Grandma. I realize they should probably be done with bottles but I keep putting off the transition. We all love the snuggle time!
 This picture has a lot more meaning that it looks! Shannon and I were on our way to meet Alicia for lunch when a lady hit Shannon's car. It was a bit shocking for several reasons. One being that just a few weeks prior, Shannon and Scott's car was hit by a guy who left the keys in his U-haul at a gas station and it ran right into the side of their car and ended up totalling their car. It was a nightmare dealing with that situaion since the guy didn't have insurance. They had JUST bought another car the day before we were hit. Unbelievable! Luckily the lady had insurance and getting it fixed was much better this time around. We had some sore necks but it in a couple of days we were feeling fine. At the end of the ordeal, she asked us for a ride home. We really weren't sure what to do but after her giving a few sob stories (one being that she had foot problems) we caved. Not sure we should have but she seemed very nice and I felt bad leaving her stranded since her car wouldn't start. Meanwhile...our kids were having the time of their lives walking to 7-11 from Grandma and Grandpa's house. We did this as kids and they think it's so much fun to do this. After we dropped the lady off, we were at a stop sign. I looked to my right and saw a bunch of kids walking. They were our kids!! We snapped a picture and drove on to meet Alicia. But it sure made us smile watching our kids having fun.
 We made it to the beach. It was pretty cold that day but it didn't stop anyone from having fun! Audrey and Anna loved the sand so much. Audrey watching the water.
 Anna playing in the sand.
 I saw this picture in the mix. Dave was having his own fun back at home. He had some guys over to shoot. They had a whole table set off for all the goods!
 Audrey and Anna having fun with Grandpa John on the floor. Not sure why it was so fuzzy.
 We had fun seeing Jason, Krista, Oliver and Grandpa and Grandma Walton for a fun dinner! Ollie, Anna and Audrey are only a few months apart but by the size difference you'd think they were a couple years apart! We loved getting to see Jamie, Sean, Kate and Brian at church and I'm bummed we didn't get a picture!
 Anna and Audrey sitting on a little bench during dinner.
 They LOVE babies! I told Dave that means we should adopt again but he says we're good. :)
 It's always a highlight to visit the cemetery where our sweet little Brie's body is. Oh how we miss her! When I looked at this picture, I instantly thought how it just doesn't look like everyone is there. And that's because they aren't. We have two more girls to add to the picture some day. I can't wait.
 So sweet.
 Dave can still hold both in one hand and have a free hand.
 Story time with Grandma Walton! They LOVE books. Any kind. Even books with no pictures!
 Anna, Grandpa Walton, Audrey. There's something so fun about holding two on your lap at the same time.
 Anna playing with the kickboards at the swim club.
 We spent much of 4th of July at the club. I was so thankful for helpers everywhere I turned!
Emily's sister had these swim suits and they are the greatest thing ever!!! It's so great to not put sunscreen all over two little girls!

The Bears' House

 What a perfect name for our friends who have loads of animals! Booie and Karen invited us over to see their horses. They also had 3 dogs which were quite the entertainment for Anna and Audrey (and Nate, of course). Anna especially loved the little dog!
 We came to check out the horses since we've sorta been thinking about getting horses someday. The kids' vote was a unanimous yes but the parents are still trying to figure out if we are up for the challenge.

 Anna


 Ash and Audrey
Nate and Audrey